R Man-less

R man took off this morning for a conference in Washington and to visit his family in Annapolis. I hate this. Except for work we spend very little time apart and it makes me uneasy, as if I have to keep an eye on him. He's very much smarter than I am, but he's not good at navigating airports and dealing with hotels and things like that. I can't bring myself to pin a note to his collar, just in case, but don't think I haven't considered it.

A lot of this comes from feeling like I don't deserve to be as happy as I am, that I'm not worthy of the very contented life we lead. I need to stop worrying.